This.
What else is left to say?
Some experiences create a festering. Others trigger explosions. However, maturity and practice leads to control and expression of emotions away from others.
I am cursed with both a need for order, plans, and structure and also the ability to feel emotions and stress vividly. I know the true power of gentleness. I have witnessed the destructiveness of rage and rash actions. One is difficult, like an athletic feat that takes years of training to accomplish. One is easy, going down as smooth as southern pecan pie. One leads to peace, the other to strife.
If only life didn’t have these moments where you meet the end of your logic and calm. If only kindness reigned and exhaustingly stressful moments were held at bay, never flooding their dam.
Gather the pieces, grow. Accept wisdom and act upon it. Then help others with your gentle words.
I am at the crossroads. It’s hard not to be angry at an almost 5 year old who throws a fit over everything (when she knows it has never worked in 5 years and ALWAYS gets her in trouble).. but I am TRYING.
Jill, it is SO HARD!! Sometimes I literally have to just walk outside and kick the ground and swing at the air to get my frustration out. I am like you…. I am trying so hard…. not there yet